Head Shot

 I always looking for new photographic challenges. Sometimes on some grandiose plan, but sometimes it is something a little smaller.

A few weeks ago, I got an email from work saying our ID cards needed updating and we would need a new headshot.

My last ID photo was taken about 15 years ago, where as a group we all marched down, where a professional took our photos. That has been my image since then. I always say that corporate photos are a bit like a reverse Dorian Grey, where your image fixes you in time while you grow older. The other fact is I hated that image. I made the mistake of having an open collar shirt, and to be honest I weighed more in those days and my face showed it.

Since that time the world of photography has moved on. 15 years ago, the process of getting a half decent image was complex, now pretty well anyone with a phone can generate one, and that is the process most will take.

But I'm a photographer dammit. The easy way is not an option, and if I was going to get an image of myself, it was going to be the best damn one I could make.

Doing Head

Portrait photography generally is not my thing. It really requires a dedicated space and equipment. Then there is getting the best out of your subject, which requires you instructing them and ordering them about, something I am not really comfortable with. However surely, I could deal with me, couldn't I.

My 1st call was YouTube. I wanted to know two things. Firstly, the optimum lighting setup and secondly, the best way to pose to get the most flattering shot. Fortunately, there are loads of videos on this sort of thing, however there were a number of issues

Firstly, most assumed you had a large space, with infinite number of lights and other apparatus. Secondly almost all used some young female model as their example. I couldn't find the one on how to take rather grizzled 60-year-old blokes. To be honest most of the models would have looked fine if they had gurned into the camera, while my best side was probably inside a paper bag. 

Still, I got some ideas. Basically, I needed at white background and at least two light sources. One to illuminate my face, another to illuminate the background. I also needed a reflector to ensure both sides of the face were evenly illuminated (A third light would of been better here, but two was easier)

Flashing myself

Pros don't have to de-costruct their liveing quarters to take an image

I therefore went to look what I had. Professional photographers use speedlights, main powered flashes. I have considered over the years in getting some, but they are expensive and in truth I just would never use them. Instead, I had a plethora of flashes. 2 cheapo Newer flashes, and two better Godox models. My best one was a Godox ???, which is a great piece of kit. Unfortunately, some years ago I dropped it on its Hotshoe, and bent a pin, so it will not now fire from the camera. However fortunately I also have a wireless trigger, that will trigger that plus a smaller Godox flash. 

The next question was setting them up. I have a number of cheap reflector umbrella's so I mounted the larger flash on one on a stand. I also had a large white cloth that I could hang as a backdrop. This unfortunately was a bit creased, and ironing it would have been a pain, so I hoped as long as I kept the depth of field quite shallow, it would not show up. I also put a large white reflector on the other side. 

To illuminate the backdrop, I wanted to mount another flash behind me. Unfortunately, I could not find another flash mount for the umbrella poles, so resorted to an old tripod 

Finally with the flashes mounted, and the backdrop up I was ready to begin. I wanted to use my 85mm Viltrox lens since it was sharp and would hopefully provide the separation between subject and backdrop. 

In a professional studio, they often have loads of space to put there kit around and place their camera lens. I am not so fortunate in my house.

The best place is the living room, but that means kicking the family out. The dining area means working round a large table. The master bedroom is the only other one large enough, however apart from various furniture I have to work around the double bed. This meant I really did not have enough space really to fit everything in and provide the enough separation. I would love a dedicated studio space where I could setup the kit and leave it, but we just don't have that luxury, so we managed with what we had.

One other problem was the room light that hung too low. This was solved by gaffer tape to the ceiling/

Lone Worker

Once setup I needed to get the lighting correct. I needed to light myself, but not blow out the highlights. I To do this I needed to take test shots. I could of used an app, but instead I used a 10 second self-timer. 

It took a long time to get the lighting correct, partly because I did not understand the power settings on the flash which were too low. It required careful positioning of both the flash light, the power and also the camera ISO and aperture.

However, I was just about ready, when the backlight flash stopped working. This took two AA batteries, and I thought I would just change them and we would be good to go. I tried various batteries and the flash just would not start. Time was running short, so i had to find an alternative. So instead, I got one my cheaper Newer flashes. This would not be wirelessly triggered, but could be slaved to the other flash light.

So I setup again, I had one more problem. Actually, taking the photo. Like I said up to there I had been using a self-timer, but I really needed some way to position myself. I could of used an app, but it is awkward to look down to an app, the pose. I therefore asked my wife if she would do the honours

Family Affair

When I mentioned to wife and two daughters my project. There first reaction was to take me in hand in clothing and makeup. My youngest decided to attack my eyebrows, while also suggesting which tie I should wear. 

However, it was my wife that I really depended on since she would take the actual image. She also was useful as a model to get the lighting correct. At this point the dog also decided it did not want to be left out and made a nuisance of itself.

Finally, we were ready.  I had to first instruct my wife how to move the camera on a tripod and press the shutter. To be honest I was so flustered at this point that any idea of posing went out of my head and I was happy to just get any image. 

Final touches

While the final image was not too bad (IMHO), there were a few issues. I had a few spots on my face and despite being clean shaven in the morning, stubble was showing. Worse, one side of my face had a slight shadow. So, I needed to process the image to correct these. This again took a few hours, until I was happy

Conclusion 

So, was it worth it? The answer is yes and no. For the purpose of a photo that will end up on a 3-inch piece of plastic that most will never look at, it was overkill. I learnt a bit about my flashes, setting up a lighting rig and the challenges of portraiture 

And I achieved my task, so all in all, yes. OK the image still shows an old bloke, but there is only so much can be done about that.

So in a few weeks’ time, the image will adorn my new pass, and it will become my corporate identity, and I can take pride that it all my own work...

P.S

My other flash mysteriously started working later that evening, and I have no idea why

The dog checking up on his

Old bloke....

 

The Lesser Exhibition - The Photography and Video Show 2026

My Video of the show ....Photography and Video Show 2026 an the NEC, Birmingham UK 

Every year I plan to go to some exhibition or photography show. My given reason is for inspiration, but to be honest I just enjoy getting out on my own with no obvious agenda.

This year it was to be the Lee Millar exhibition at the Tate modern, however I totally misread the dates and found that I had run out of time. Scanning the media for alternatives proved to be fruitless as there was little, I wanted to see. Instead, I looked at the Photography Show at the NEC in Birmingham.

To be fair I am not a huge fan of this. It is publicised as a show for photographers and creatives, but to be honest it is just a glorified trade fair, with little attempt to highlight the more artistic aspect of photography.

It is also at the Birmingham NEC which is a bunch of grey boxes dumped within a soulless industrial estate. It's only plus point is that it is only 40 minutes’ drive. It used to be its permanrnt home, but now alternates with London.  I didn’t bother last year, feeling that travelling a couple of hours to visit a London industrial estate, was not worth it. However it was now at my souless industrial estate, so I thought why not.

To Photo or not to photo

My first question is always, should I take my camera? This seems like a strange question about going to a photography show, but it sort of feels showing off. On the other hand, it would be a good chance to improve my documentary skill, and one plus point is that people at photography shows rarely have any  issues with being photographed.

My next question was should I buy anything. These shows are a bit like airport departure lounges. You say you resist the duty free, but eventually boredom wears you down to the point you end up purchasing ny pile of tat just to do something. 

This time however I told myself to be strong and resist. But only time would tell if I would succeed

Welcome to the Pleasuredome

Its always interesting on who exhibits at these shows and what it says about the state of the photographic industry. 

The big 3 players are always represented, Sony, Nikon and Canon. To be at these shows is hardly produce a blip on their cost sheet. Fuji also were well represented with a large part of their stand based around there Instax range so showing what their major cash cow was. It was also nice to see both Ricoh and Olympus represented.

The fact Leica was not there was not a big surprise. They are after all a luxury brand and really don't need to try that hard. However, it would have been nice to try a few models, just to pretend for a smidgen I would ever afford one. On the other hand, Hasselblad was there, for those £6K spontaneous purchase

However for some reason Panasonic decided not to bother for some reason.

In terms of lens manufacture, Sigma had a big stand, and Tamron was represented, but Tokina could not be bothered. However, both Laowa and Samyang had stands, and Laowa concentrating on their macro lens. Unfortuanly its seems a lot of 3rd party are now not supporting Fuji, with a lot of their newer lens only for Full Frame.

Not a lens manufacturer I have heaed off. Full frame only unfortunately

Other than cameras it is interesting to see the other trends. 

Adobe had a big stand, so spending a small part of their subscription largesse, but the company previously known as Affinity were not there, I guess now they have moved to the freemium model, they could not afford it.

There were however a number of companies selling AI workflow tools, presumably for the professional who cannot be bothered to judge their own photos. 

Also there was a big analogue presence with a number of stalls sell physical films which could be seen as a reaction to the AI world.

The other things which seemed, missing were the smaller component manufacturers like SRB. . However, a company called Platypod was there selling a flat portable tripod mount that definitely looked interesting. Over the years I have moved away from tripods, but sometimes you just was a steady platform, and this looked like the kind of thing you could pop into your camera bag until you needed it. Nicely the stall was manned (personed?) by the device inventor and his wife)

Platypod with the personal touch

A couple of other stands that caught my eye were Adaptalux. They make macro spotlight systems and I remember when they were nothing but a Kickstarter, so it was nice to see that sometimes it works out. I have been tempted by the product a number of times, but so far resisted. They are great products but just a little pricey for the number of times I would use it.

Weirder were some of the other stalls. There were a number of charity stalls. The disabled photographer stall is always welcome and well represented, but there was Greenpeace and Macmillan’s, plus a plethora of company’s overing tours, plus the Civil Aviation Authority for drones and the Intellectual Property Office putting taxpayers’ pounds to work.

Digital photography magazine gave away free copies and had a big stand, while to be honest Amateur Photography just phoned it in, which is a pity, because if they had offered a subscription i would of been tempted. However other magazines such as Outdoor photography could not be bothered.

I am always tempted by books. I acknowledge I have too many already, but I am always looking to fill those niches of knowledge and get inspiration. I was tempted by books both on flowers and dog photography (Together? - Ed), but in the end I contented myself with one on product photography, an area I find difficult and the book by ??? seemed very complete. I also got a copy of "The meaning of making" by Sean Tucker for no other reason I am always fascinated by other photographers’ motivations for photography and how it aligns with my experience

The other thing you do get at the show is a lot of good talks. Unfortunately, I could only spend half a day at the show but were limited, but did catch a talk by Roxy Hemadani, Sophie Darlington, and Lara Jackson on women in photography. Despite not being the target audience, I found it both illuminating and entertaining.

In previous years stands have encouraged footfall by have dubious methods such as scantilly clad women. Fortunately they have moved away from this, so we had instead things like Karate demonstrations and various other moving subjects

There was also the Funzone (Fun??? Ed) where you could stretch your photographic muscle with various scenes. To be honest I felt it was a bit dull really.

Finally, there is the photo exhibitions, which to be honest is what I attended for. This year they were more central which I felt worked better, but it would of been nice if they were bigger and more central

However overall, the show was a lot smaller than in previous years. This was good since you could get round more easily, but was probably less value for money. 

The final chapter is what really stings. 

The NEC card parking charge. £18 for 2 hours in an post-apocalyptic based car park. So  we know the real winners here...

The NEC pushing the welcome boat out...

The final question

So, the big question... did I buy anything?

The answer is unfortunately is yes. Apart from the afore mentioned books, I let myself be tempeted by  4mm Laowa fisheye, for no real good reason other than it seemed good value. However I am not sure if I will ever use it

I also bought Platypod, because to nbe honest I liked the people and I wanted someting I could just stick it in my camera bag, just in case.. time will tell when this will come in useful

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I am a doughnut

As JFK once famously said, "I am a doughnut". 

Of course, what he actually wanted to say was I am a Berliner, and no one in the crowd was rude enough to point out his mistake. Or maybe he wanted to be a doughnut, who knows?

I bring this up because Berlin is one of my favourite cities. Perhaps not as cultured as London, Berlin has a vibrancy all its own, that can only be achieved if you have had to be rebuilt many times in the last 100 years. 

And unlike Paris, it does not take itself too seriously, and it is on a human scale that allows you to easily explore it compared to say Tokyo.

In Berlin, you cannot but help stumbling on history, even if over the years Berliners has shown themselves adept in brushing it out. Berlin is a city that is always moving forward and tries not to look backward too much.

I first went to Berlin in 2001. It was only 12 years since the Berlin Wall had come down, but even at that point almost all trace of it had been removed. The only sign that it had existed was the rougher U-Bahn stations and the Stalinist architecture on the former Eastern side. However, even at that point the Reichstag had already been returned to its former glory with a shiny glass dome crowning it, even If you looked closely, you could still see patched bullet marks as a sign of its past.

Standing on top of the Reichstag, and looking over the city, I remember looking at the forest of cranes and saying to my wife "It'll be nice when it's finished"

Since then, I have had the opportunity to visit a number of times through work, and there always seem to be construction and building going on, so Berlin is a city that is never finished.

In December this year, I had another work trip planned, and I was caught with the usual question. Do I take my camera? 

It is situations like this where I wish I had something more compact like a Fuji X100 IV. In fact, I almost borrowed something like it, but in the end I decided to pack my XT-5 with my walk about lens (14-70mm) in the hope I might get time to use it.

The office I was visiting is in the south of Berlin, and is, in truth, a bit of a commercial and cultural desert.  This also means it is a bit deficient in hotels and Berlin's move from an isolated city icon to a full capital city has meant hotel space is always at a premium. As it was, the only hotel close to the factory was fully booked, and I was forced to find one further afield. 

Of course, I was here for work, so any opportunities for photography would be limited, but I chose a hotel with easy access to the city centre with the hope that I could sneak off in the evenings. Being November, however, daylight outside work hours would be nil

Fortunately, Berlin has an extensive subway system, although they appear to have dropped the 2 euro all day travel pass, which I used last time I was there. One thing I find extraordinary about the Berlin U-Bahn is the total lack of travel barriers or checks of any times. I don't remember getting checked once, and while I am sure there are ticket inspectors, I never saw any. Even the law-abiding Japanese traveller are not trusted that much.

The area the hotel was based was not one of the more salubrious areas, with a high preponderance of immigrant shops and cafés. However, I always find these areas more interesting than the pristine tourist areas, so was not an issue.

Where history lies 

Despite being a busy city, Berlin has large areas of woods and gardens. Behind the hotel was such an area, which turned out to be a cemetery. Now I have a fascination with cemeteries. Firstly they are quiet, and you don't get disturbed by the residents.  

Secondly, a cemetery is a bit like a tree ring. It shows the history of an area chiselled in the stone in the tombstones and monuments.  Since it was still Autumn, the trees and ground were still garlanded with golden leaves. What really drew my attention however were stone water butts that were spread around the area, with the grey rock and water reflection contrasting with the trees

 

When Berlin, I cannot stop myself looking for signs of its former troubled history. You would expect a number of gravestones from the 1940s caused by the blitz, but apparently this neighbourhood was largely spared destruction. Still, in places there were stark reminders that the area has not always be an oasis of peace.

 

A sign of the times 

The City

Despite working long hours, in the evening I had a couple of opportunities to head into the city centre proper. Berlin is quite a compact city and the is basically one long street, Unter der linden (literally under the Linden trees). So I started at the eponymous Brandenburg Gate, and headed to that monument of DDR permanence, the Fernstrum television tower, that dominates the Berlin skyline.

Being night and not having a tripod, I was always going to be limited in what shots I could take, however I spent sometime outside the Berliner Dom Cathedral trying a few things.

 I also tried to take shots of cyclists as they headed down the street. In Berlin, they seem to operate like buses. For periods, you get none, then loads appear

 

 

Christmas Cheer

On my 2nd foray onto the city, I decided to try and find a German Christmas market.  I come from a place that has an annual German market (generally run by people with very un-german accents), which always feels a bit fake, so I hoped to taste the real thing. However, apparently Germany are very strict that such markets can only operate during the actual official Christmas period. There was however a small "winter" market that offered a many of the same attractions of currywusts, alcoholic mulled wine and overpriced sweets.

So I hung around taking a few images are customers and stalls. I also got into a conversation with a young German couple who wanted to know about my camera and whether he should buy one for her. They were from Schalke and just visiting (he supported Schalke 04, while she was a Bayern Munich fan). It was great to have a chat, even of my 2 years of Duo lingo practice came to naught, since like most Germans, their English was impeccable.

 

Last bit of the wall

Probably not Diabetes friendly...

Had a great chat about cameras...

 

 

Growing bored with gingerbread purveyors. I decided to head to the nearby Holocaust memorial. 

 

This is a stark set of concrete blocks commemorating the Jewish victims of the 2nd world war. In daylight, it offers myriad photographic opportunities, but at night less so. Mass of grey block at night really was not doing it for me, so I headed to the nearby Reichstag instead.

 

I was surprised to see it was still open, but I could not work out whether it was a special event, so I chickened out and just took some pictures outside and the nearby River Spree. Access is surprisingly relaxed around this area, and no one seems to have problems with cameras

 

Brandenbug Gate

Shadows from history

Spirits into the Reichstag

The Reichstag

 

 

Final thoughts 

Despite my limited opportunities, I still find Berlin a fascinating city. Sometime ago I tried to do a re-photography thing and match some old images against the modern skyline. It just emphasised the rate of change. 

 

I would love to go back one day for purely photographic expedition. It is a city I feel very comfortable with, but still don't feel I have captured fully its charms, but I too am a doughnut.